i'm really ok if pple APPRECIATE wat i've done for dem...everyone noes wenever i do sumting for sum1...i dun show it....but hell...tings arent even my fault....juz some bloody newcomer lied bout me n dah....its all gone...kalau nk kater backstab den i'm e one yg kene backstab...i kept quiet & forgave...but wif dem still tinking i said bad tings bout dem....i cudnt accept it...i had to bring out dis matter again...u guys dun even noe e history bout dat newcomer...i noe alot but wats e used of me telling u guys wen u din even believed me...ego sngt per.....perangai tkmo mcm rockstar uh...pple still come to me asking if u all can perform again...i told dem to contact u but i duno uh if dey did....i dun give a fcuking damn bout it anymore...watever u guys tink bout me i dun care...i still haf gd words bout u guys wenever pple kutok krg....day n nite i regretted bout my decision...cuz i shud haf at least tried to gain ur trust but i juz gave up...thks uh really uh....after all i've done...i motivated almost everyone of u until u are where u r now....do u tink u guys wud even perform under Xtreme music if it wasnt for me....thks really uh....dat really make my day...i've been closed wif u guys for 4 yrs....some even 5 yrs....n i nvr got e trust wen i really nid it...so much for supporting each other...
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:loyalty by american head charge
k...is this a surprise or what? finally i update my eljay....after so long.....life...there'a few ups & down...but that's life isn't it? u can't stay happy all the way right............unless u are one lucky son-of-a-bitch.....haha...sorry dudes(whoever's offended)...k...so far...i'll tell u pple the ups & down of my life...
UPS
- Have been changing hps from Nokia 6280 to Sony Ericsson K800i to.....etc. Currently using W900i & a new hp is already on my mind..hee...sorry bb....
- got a PSP as a christmas present from my dad...weird hur....
- 6 mths has passed & i'm still with her....
- Got a $1,300 per month job & i'm loving it...
- Met new friends & there are fcuking great
- Have two bands(SMC & DS13) but another one is coming(_______)
- Bought a new pair of shoes(Everlast)
- Finally went to a holiday via aeroplane(to jakarta...)& the last time i boarded a plane was when i was in sec 2 & that is to England
- My boncet is getting smaller....=P
DOWNS
- Fought alot with her
- Didn't get a NITEC Cert just because i failed one subject.
- Been losing stuffs e.g. money & ez-link
- Losing old friends...tried to meet up but they were just too busy
- Confused in whatever decisions i made
Well...that's all about it....hmm....
- Mood:
having migrane - Music:Roadrunner United - The Dagger
n i heard an ald fren of mine broke up wif his gerl...coming to 11 mths together rite...? relax dude...i'm making dis entry as a public entry juz for u....dun give up like how u were last time...kalau bole patch....kalau tk bole den try to forget her uh...even though its difficult...rmmbr dis line..."dere r many fishes out there...none are perfect but there can only be one for u...."...find dat person dude & i hope u succeed...i'll be dere if u nid my help...pape calling calling yerr...hahah..
n lastly...its kinda upset to see my old band being treated like badly at 211....mcm drg jdi bahan kutok...haizz...i cant sey much or defend like i used to cuz im not in e band anymore....kene label "e band wif groupies"...haiz...n dey sey all but e vox is arrogant...i've redy 4get e probs we used to haf so i haf no negative feeling towards dem anymore...but i noe wat ever dey sey bout my old band isnt true...even though dey cover bands dat only YPs listen to but c'mon...it's their prob...u wun get to see dem cover LOG or JFAC songs....dey haf their own style....haizz....juz sad...well...gotta admit dat i joined dead since 13 n smc cuz i juz wanted a band...might be quiting bof bands but i duno....currently having a rock band but dat is juz for fun....hmm...any bands interested in me? hahaha....i can be their vocalist....drummer or bassist....hahaha....metalcore pls...no other genre...got a few riffs but i noe it oni suits my ex-band....hmm....guess i gotta find or make a band like my ex-band....hee...
- Music:Killswitch Engage - This Fire Burns
- Mood:
confused - Music:The Autumn Offering - Embrace The Gutter
hmm...got two new bands....someone murdered cupid & dead since 13.....gotta admit dat i din join these bands because i was okay wif the members...but because of my passion for music & performing at gigs.....i luv those moments & i surely wud treasure those moments wen i performed wif rt....both gd & bad....
yesterday may be 28th of sept but i oready got an advanced bdae gift....hehe....from who else....ina!!..hehe...thks so much dear...well she bought for me a new fone...2nd hand of course la...bnyk duit beli first hand hp....in case u guys din noe....i was using W810i...buti downgrade it to S700i cuz i din have money at dat time...i was kinda unhepy wif the fone cuz it sux(but ina & ahpom din agree wif me...hmm...).but yeah as usual....my baby will oways be dere to help me.....hehe...luv u dear...
N now since it's e hols....i nid to get a job....cuz I'M BROKE!!!!
N my bdae is on e eve of Hari Raya....yup...23rd Oct....buy for me sumting k...hehe...;p
- Mood:
have been vomitting.. - Music:Killswitch Engage - This Fire Burns
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to take things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.
FEBRUARY:SMARTS
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon.
Has more than one best friend.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
MARCH:CUTIE
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
travelling. Systematic. hot and has brains.
APRIL:GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!!Attractive personality.Very! sexy.Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! Just one of the clumsiest people you will ever meet. A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of MFE these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
MAY:FREAK
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.
JUNE:SHYNESS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.
JULY:FLIRT
You've got the best personality and are an
absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make
new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
and more than likely have an a very attractive
partner. a wicked hottie.like somebody with a
august brithday. It is also more than likely
that you have a massive record collection. You
have a great choice in films, and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,
you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you
will meet someone that may possibly become
one of your closest friends,
AUGUST:ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.
SEPTEMBER:LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex n makin luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!!Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.you are a great match with some body in july.
OCTOBER:BABE
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Great in bed.Inner
and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices.
Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others.
It is all about love and fairness.Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Horny but does fullfill
Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions.
Know what to do to have fun. Unpredictable.Someone to have close to you.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.
NOVEMBER:HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the
greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost
in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming
up sometime this month.
DECEMBER:BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
- Mood:
having gastric...fcuk! - Music:Craig David - Walking Away
oh yar...after e 27th august gig, i'll leave RT. a personal reason though...but kinda like fed up wif e band cuz dey r not progressing....nvm la..up to dem...n dis new fella....he created most of the prob...its a mistake to bring him in but yar...gotta accept it though...he stole my bestfren away...try to steal my oder frens but too bad dey werent intersted bitch. n bcuz of him, RT n SMC are like totally hate ich oder in a way bcuz of him playing two sides...well RT, u'll soon noe wat he's been doing behind ur back....
but no worries....i redy got an offer to join a deathcore band...but still got no drummer...hehe...anyone interested? hehe....3 members will be quiting dark resurrection n dey wana form a deathcore band...dey ask me along...i used to have a prob wif one of dem but we cleared e air n it was all a misunderstanding....so yarr...datz all la...tired uhh...nytes
- Mood:
ngantok giler sakkk - Music:Through The Eyes Of The Dead - Forever Ends Today
1) How old were you?
THEN: 8
NOW: 18
2) Where did you go to school?
THEN: Zhenghua Pri Sch
NOW: ITE Bedok
3) Where did you work?
THEN: nowhere...i'm was only 8 yrs old dammit
NOW: DW Pte Ltd
4) Where did you live?
THEN: Bkt Panjang
NOW: Yishun
5) How was your hairstyle?
THEN: mcm mangkok
NOW: mullet
6) Did you wear braces?
THEN: no
NOW: no lar
7) Did you wear contacts?
THEN: tak tau camner nk pakai
NOW: not anymore....
8) Did you wear glasses?
THEN: nope
NOW: sometimes
9) Who was your best friend?
THEN: Fairuz
NOW: my gf
10) Which of your pets were still alive?
THEN: i had 9 cats back then
NOW: only two small fishes
11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
THEN: errr.....no one?
NOW: ina
12) Who was your celebrity crush?
THEN: is batman counted as a celebrity?
NOW: errr....duno?
13) Who was your regular-person crush?
THEN: errr.....myself..
NOW: my gf lar doink
14) How many piercings did you have?
THEN: none
NOW: takde larrr
15) How many tattoos did you have?
THEN: giler pe?
NOW: u tink u funny arr nabeh
16) What was your favourite band/singer?
THEN: Guns N' Roses
NOW: As I Lay Dying
17) Had you smoked a cigarette?
THEN: nopez
NOW: yarrr...smoking my dad's cigg rite now...hah...
18) Had you gotten drunk?
THEN: nope
NOW: i dun drink anymore so yarrr....
19) Have you driven yet?
THEN: cudnt reach for e accelerator
NOW: illegal ones...haha..
20) If so which car?
THEN: my dad's
NOW: still my dad's
21) Looking back, are you where you thought you would be in 2006?
musician & hey....i got three bands!! hahaha...k bye
- Mood:
i'm bored - Music:Shadows Fall - The Power Of I And I
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Metallica - Die, Die My Darling
next person...org tegoh jek...tros bunge...tanak lek2 ngan kiter...wadehell...be matured lar....since u act like one....yeah u accused everyone's a hypocrite...well arent u being one as well by doing such ting....
one last person...who e fuck do u tink u r by commenting bout my band....u jeles hurr dat we tried to mix power metal n hardcore...well ure band suck except for ur guitarist....all ur band noe is steal ur frens song w/o their permission...nk cover lagu susah2 tapi tk ley make it......n dun call urself BASS GOD larr...deres so many people better den u...n even if u're better den me...u dun haf to boast bout it....stop bringing me down...u duno wat i'm capable of.....fatty asshole
- Mood:
irritated - Music:Lamb Of God - A Devil In God's Country
- Mood:
fuck u all k.... - Music:Summer's End - Final Goodbye
k i'm freaking bored right now...so yarr i'll just post pics taken from my hp....here we go... ( May 06 ) ( 1st June-5th June 06 ) That's all folks...as days passed by..I'm sure there'll be more pics...hee...
- Mood:
calm - Music:Nickelback - Photograph






- Mood:
having fever dammit... - Music:Five - Closer To You
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Wings - Bujang Senang
- Mood:
fuck u
- Mood:
haizzzzzzzzz - Music:Metallica - Fade To Black
- Mood:
every part of my body hurts - Music:Caliban - It's Our Burden To Bleed
left home arnd 11 plus....din noe where to go...msg azri but he's getting ready to go to school...so decided to go to my cousin's house at teck whye...watched 'date movie' while having my lunch dere....after dat left his house arnd 3 to go n mit ina, isah, tina & duno who dis 'lembot' guy is...haha...da sampai...i mit ina dulu kat library...mcm kesian kan she had to wait for me for so long cuz her class ended early...but hey i was from cck so wad do u expect...e journey was so long but syira called n keep me company..so sweet..hahaha...wadehell....
k back to e story...met ina...den went to wait isha n her frens at mac...biler drg da sampai, we proceed to starbucks...sat down...haf a chat n laugh....den azrie join us...n bof of us were secretly msging wif ich oder..commenting on isha's 'lembot' fren...hahahah....klakar sak...den bout half an hour later...e 'lembot' guy left....den baru azrie start to talk...haha...he was quiet e whole time...den bla bla bla....zul join us arnd 8 after sending tsue home from werk....yarr...bout few mins later we left....so yarr...im freaking slpy but suspect later tk ley tdo..haha...
- Mood:
freaking exhausted...hmm... - Music:Rhetorical Theory - Let Me Go
YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO EXPLAIN.
1. Taken a picture with someone else? ==> yes
2. Painted your room? ==> yes
3. Painted a car? ==> no
4. Drive a car? ==> yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? ==> no
6. Have a crush? ==> yes
7. Been sad? ==> yes
8. Have a friend? ==> yes
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? ==> no
10. Been in a fist fight? ==> yes
11. Been happy? ==> yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? ==> yes
13. Been arrested? ==> yes
14. Made out with a stranger? ==> no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? ==> yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents? ==> yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? ==> yes
18. Skipped school to do something more fun? ==> yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? ==> yes
20. Seen someone die? ==> yes
21. Been on a plane? ==> yes
22. Kissed sumone (not a parent or "friend")? ==> yes
23. Slept in until 3pm? ==> yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? ==> yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? ==> no
26. Made a snow angel? ==> no
27. Made sumone happy? ==> yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? ==> yes
29. Been lonely? ==> yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school ==> yes
31. Been to a party? ==> yes
32. Felt an earthquake? ==> no
33. Touched a snake? ==> yes
34. Ran as fast as u can? ==> yes
36. Been heartbroken? ==> yes
37. Been in a car accident? ==> no
38. Hated your parents? ==> yes
39. Witnessed a crime? ==> yes
40. sweet danced? ==> no
41. Been lost? ==> yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? ==> yes
43. Been lonely? ==> yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? ==> yes
46. Sang karaoke? ==> no
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ==> yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? ==> no
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? ==> yes
50. kissed in the rain? ==> yes
51. Sang in the shower? ==> yes
52. Played football? ==> yes
53. Had a dream that you married someone? ==> yes
54. Glued your hand to something? ==> yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? ==> no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? ==> no
57. Been a leader? ==> yes
58. Sat on a roof top? ==> yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? ==> no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? ==> no
61. Played chicken? ==> no
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? ==> yes
63. Ever been told u were hot from a complete stranger? ==> yes
64. Broken a bone? ==> yes
65. Been easily amused? ==> yes
67. smiled at someone? ==> yes
68. Cheated on a test? ==> yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? ==> yes
70. Slept naked? ==> yes
71. Been in a pool? ==> yes
73. Been in a classroom? ==> yes
74. Played badminton? ==> yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? ==> yes
76. Made love to anything not human? ==> no!! no!!
77. Failed a class? ==> yes
78. Love sumone? ==> yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? ==> yes
80. Loved someone so much you'd do anything to get them back? ==> yes
81. Easily fall for sumone? ==> yes
82. Thrown strange objects? ==> yes
83. Felt like killing someone? ==> yes
84. Felt like running away? ==> yes
85. Ran away? ==> yes
86. Did drugs? ==> yes
87. Been in a party? ==> yes
89. Made a parent cry? ==> yes
90. Cried over someone? ==> yes
91. Smoked more than 10 times in one day? ==> yes
92. Dated someone more than once? ==> yes
93. Had/Have a dog? ==> no
95. Own an instrument? ==> yes
96. Are you in a band? ==> yes
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? ==> no
98. Broken a CD? ==> yes
99. Been in a beach? ==> yes
100. Had feelings for sumone? ==> yes
- Mood:
calm